people often ask me if i will have another child. honestly, there was a time when i didn't think that i wanted to. bean was a very good kid BUT a handful at the same time. i wasn't sure i could wrangle another one! now, well i think i've changed my mind. i kind of miss having a baby. toddlers are AWESOME but not very snugly- if you have one i'm sure you know what i mean. the problem is... i would SO want another girl. i wanted a girl the first time and i REALLY want another one. i don't have the slightest idea what i would do with a boy! i watch people with little boys. boys are so.... different! you would think that when they are this little they would be similar, but i don't think so. its not that i don't like boys! little boys can be lovely! i just don't know how to have a little boy... if that makes sense. i know there are lots of people who think that you should be happy just to have a child and shouldn't be picky about the gender. i know that is right but i can't help what my heart wants. i know what it is like to spend several years trying to get pregnant. i know what it is like to loose a baby. i know that a healthy child is all i should wish for. but at the same time, i REALLY want a girl. i'm a girl's mom. i am.
so to answer the question... yes, maybe we will have another child. hopefully it does not take over 2.5 years like it did the first time. hopefully i will not have to go through another miscarriage. and hopefully the baby will be healthy. AND if it is another girl, that will just be the icing on the cake.
bean has been playing with her sunglasses. she is such a little movie star in them... ok, more like the stunt double but that's ok too! today she attempted to put them on the dog! poor magpie! she didn't know what to do and kept throwing me these dagger like stares. if looks could kill! HA!
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